I knew I would be back here. I woke up this morning to the news that this man had died and wrote my earlier, heartfelt tribute on the train on the way to work. At random times during the day, my eyes welled up. I had the same lyrics popping into my head all day long and I'm not sure why:
"she used her body just like a bandage
She used my body just like a wound...
I'll never know why she disappeared,
And I can see her rising up out of the back seat now, just like an angel rising up from a tomb"
I'm young enough to have somehow escaped losing any of the major figures of my youth. Until now. I love listening to music, reading books, and watching TV and movies. There is only a small handful, 7 or 8, musicians, authors, actors or directors whose death could really upset me. This was one.
Meatloaf's music was deeply uncool and I was a deeply uncool kid, and it spoke to me (a lot like Genesis!). Bat out of hell 2 was a seminal, massive album for me as a person. I look at the comments in the guardian on his obituary and see phenomenal stories of what a kind, generous man he was. The anecdote where a support band failed to show so he went out early and played for four hours. The venue medic who said he was the only artist who went back there to thank them.
The best insights of all were from him of course. That rock and roll is a joke, so laugh at him. That being a celebrity is bullshit and not his style at all. That he saw himself more like a plumber who had a job to do and wanted to do it well.
Unsurprisingly I listened to a lot of his music tonight. I've never felt big tears rolling down my face as an adult but I'm not afraid to say I did tonight. A big piece of my childhood died today.
He was a very loud, cartoonish, down to earth gem. His discography is littered with treasures much beyond the radio ballads and bombastic rock.
Sorry for coming back for a second bite at the cherry here. The emotion is closer to what it feels like when a loved pet dies than when a random famous person dies. Legitimate grief. Whatever afterlife there is got a whole lot louder today in the best way possible. Rip meatloaf.